Tonight was fantastic.
I started out with a really bad day - full of feeling sorry
for myself - and my boyfriend entirely turned it around. I don’t think I truly
give him enough credit for his ability to cheer me up. He took me out for
dinner, treated me to the cinema and bought me this gift I had really wanted
for a while now – just to cheer me up. He’s always great, but I guess I didn’t
realise how easily he could rescue me from feeling so sad.
Tomorrow I’ll be back in the city for Glasgow Gay Pride, it’s
bound to be spectacular. I guess I’ve changed from sad to happy pretty quickly.
Today taught me a lot, something so important – don’t be
afraid to let people in. When I am sad I try and deal with these emotions on my
own and it’s almost impossible to heal. There’s so much that I can do to stay
happy, but making myself happy is pretty difficult and I’m not scared to admit
that. I mean, I can cheer myself up by so much but having the love and
encouragement of another is really what gets me to the right mental place.
Please lean on your friends and family – they are there to help you, you might
feel like they don’t care or they have their own issues to deal with – but it
would surprise you how prepared they are to support you.
I’ve done so much to ensure I don’t let negativity get to me
– I have such a sanguine temperament. Although my episodes can alter my
behaviour, it does not deter from the fact that I have a whole independent
character and personality outwith my illness.
Your healing and your journey to your optimum happiness does
not have to be a lonely one – sure there are things that you can do to elevate
your mood, but nothing quite beats that loving feeling of company.
Even if you don’t feel very good there is no reason or
productivity in lashing out at others, writing horrible things online or
generally being a bad egg. If you treat everyone well, you’re in turn treating
yourself well. Being polite and making others content can affect how you are –
be the light you want to receive!
It’s hard being positive, as much as I apparently make it
look ‘easy’ (I swear like a trooper off the internet!), you just have to say
good things, do good things and you will eventually feel good. You put into the
world what you get, make the effort with your friends and they’ll make the
effort for you. Motivate and encourage each other, we can all be happy if we
try it together!